Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Aku sudah kembali dari hiatus

Bismillah

Sekarang sudah Ogos. Untuk tahun 2010 cuma 6 kali aku mengemaskini blog. Ini catatan aku yang ketujuh. Kata orang nombor 7 itu nombor bertuah. Kalau aku kaki tikam ekor maka aku bakal menikam nombor 777 RM10 small. Tak baik tamak, tuhan marah. RM10 sudah cukup jika benar nombor itu bertuah. Ingat anak-anak,jangan bikin tuhan marah. Buruk padahnya nanti.

Semenjak kebelakangan ini aku dah menemui jiwa aku yang hilang. Aku pun tak pasti bagaimana sebenarnya jiwa aku yang dulu. Mungkin jiwa aku 5 tahun yang dulu lebih hip dan ‘happening’ dari sekarang. Mungkin juga jiwa aku sekarang ini lebih ‘cool’. Tapi aku rasa jiwa aku lebih stabil. (Ini bukan iklan untuk buku Ayam Fared yang bertajuk Stabil).

Sepanjang setahun yang lampau, terlampau banyak kejadian yang berlaku. Namun kejadian-kejadian buruk yang menimpa aku tidak melemahkan semangat aku yang jitu. Aku selalu memuji-muji diri aku sendiri dengan mengulang-ngulang frasa berikut sambil berbisik seperti iklan kurma Yusuf T itu: “Sesungguhnya aku la makhluk tuhan paling seksi,bijak dan vok di donia yang fana ini.” Ritual di depan cermin ini disudahi dengan aksi aku menunjukkan jari best sambil tersengih manja seperti DDR di dalam iklan Jusmate beliau di dada akhbar.

Menurut rakan taulan aku yang semakin sedikit bilangannya, aku sepertinya dugong obes yang sudah tidak mempunyai masa depan yang gemilang. Selayaknya aku patut dibuang ke dalam gaung kerana langsung tidak menyumbang kepada gagasan 1 Malaysia dalam menjadikan Malaysia negara yang cemerlang,gemilang dan terbilang. Mulanya aku redha dengan kenyataan itu sampaikan aku hanya telentang di depan tv menonton the Big Bang Theory dengan berulang-ulang sambil diselang seli dengan Wonderpets dan Spongebob.

Tapi bak kata bf aku, Giring, tuhan itu maha cinta. Dengan cinta-Nya maka aku sudah menemui jiwa aku yang hampir mati setelah mendapat perkhabaran bahawa VCD Ariel Peterporn sudah beredar di pasaran. Kuciwa betul kerana aku tidak sempat membuat penampilan istimewa. Kalau tidak pasti ramai peminat video porno akan bertaubat nasuha untuk tidak lagi menonton porno setelah melihatkan aksi dugong obes dan Ariel yang macho babeng itu!

Bak kata A Rahman Hassan, tapi tak mengapa ku derita parap parap.. Apa yang penting, hidup selagi terdaya. Derita macam mana pun kita mesti maju terus. Tengok orang kat Wangsa Maju. Memang maju belaka penduduk kat situ. Maju jaya manjang katanya. Tapi ingat, kejayaan itu takkan semudah Maju Expressway. Usaha selagi terdaya dan jangan sampai lemau cam Maju Junction ngahahahaha.

Nidji – Tuhan Maha Cinta




Tahukah Tuhanmu selalu hidup di dalam hatimu

Cinta dari-Nya menjawab semua masalahmu

Dia mendengar melihat dan selalu berfirman

Perangi neraka di dalam hatimu

Damaikan jiwamu dengan cinta Dia

Memberi yang ikhlas kepada yang butuh

Bersyukurlah terus tanpa kenal waktu

Serukan, ikhlaskan, pasrahkanlah hanya kepada-Nya

Cinta-Nya adalah jawaban-Nya karena Tuhanlah Maha Cinta

Karena Tuhanlah Maha Cinta

Tahukah Tuhanmu selalu hidup di dalam hatimu

Cinta dari-Nya menjawab semua masalahmu

Dia mendengar melihat dan selalu berfirman

Perangi neraka di dalam hatimu

Damaikan jiwamu dengan cinta Dia

Memberi yang ikhlas kepada yang butuh

Bersyukurlah terus tanpa kenal waktu

Serukan, ikhlaskan, pasrahkanlah hanya kepada-Nya

Cinta-Nya adalah jawaban-Nya karena Tuhanlah Maha Cinta

Karena Tuhanlah Maha Cinta

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Saturday, April 24, 2010

Jom tonton Hooperz!


My new anthem :)

Tak pernah sesaat daku meragui
Apa yang telah daku temui selama ini
Tak pernah sesaat daku menyesali
Apa yang telah aku nikmati
Apa ku alami
Selagi hayat dikandung badan
Takkan ku menyerah kalah walau mimpiku musnah
Harapanku hancur sayapku patah
Kan ku pancarkan cahaya seperti pelita
Ke serata dunia yang gelap gelita
Sehingga hembusan nafas yang terakhir

Tak pernah sesaat aku mencurigai
Apa yang telah aku kecapi setakat ini
Tiba saatnya kan ku tangisi
Pada yang pergi takkan kembali
Kembali lagi

Selagi hayat dikandung badan
Takkan ku menyerah kalah walau mimpiku musnah
Harapanku hancur sayapku patah
Kan ku pancarkan cahaya seperti pelita
Ke serata dunia yang gelap gelita
Sehingga hembusan nafas yang terakhir
Selagi jasadku belum terkubur
Selagi tubuhku belum ditimpa uzur
Pantang datuk nenek moyangku berundur
Takkan ku menyerah kalah walau mimpiku musnah
Harapanku hancur sayapku patah
Akan ku pancar cahaya seperti pelita ke seluruh dunia
Akan ku pancar cahaya seperti pelita ke serata dunia
Seperti cahaya

Friday, April 09, 2010

I wish I could stop evangelizing about how terrible life is

I received some texts from friends about my behaviour on Facebook. I’m not sure who came up with the deduction that Facebook is a reliable source to measure out your happiness in the world. If I happen to know who the oxymoron is, I’m sure as hell that the person would end up being paralyzed for at least 6 months! The truth is, I’m nor happy or sad. Melancholic is more like it, considering that I spend much time gazing on several spots  on the ceiling or sleeping like a log most of the days. I suppose I am tired of living and on the verge of giving up. Seeing an old friend who reminded me that that I have not accomplished much is really bad for my mental health. Not forget to mention an unexpected ear bashing from my sister which could be deterred should I pretended not to hear her phone call.

I was glad to be in contact with Oreoobserver through YM. He was a fellow blogger who had stopped writing. It was such a loss because his blog never failed to crack me up. Our YM chat reminded me why I started blogging in the first place. I wanted a space to write as well as pouring my heart out.  Lately, things have changed and I don't update my blog much. Having another space to write on monthly basis causes me to neglect this space. You see, writing for children when you have turned into a cold-hearted witch is not good. You would either purposely include some bombastic words just to punish the lazy school kids and teachers or write monotonously. I suppose over the years I have became a more reserved person hence no more writings about my feelings. Perhaps, I have mastered the art of suppressing my feelings and have stopped wearing my heart on my sleeve. Hence, no more posting on how much I hate this certain people and what not.

For the past few months I have been involved with a new set of friends, which really is dynamic. Being with them makes me feel vibrant. Experiencing how trust is built, understanding their penchant, exchanging ideas; these are the reasons why at times I opt to spend much time with them. Like any other person who is newly integrated into a new group, one definitely couldn’t avoid being involved in unnecessary dramas. I drained most of my energy being involved in one. I’m not sure whether I have fully recovered. The trickiest part would be identifying what the other party is thinking of. You might be sweating all over while wondering if your silly remark would end up with you being lambasted by your new friends. You might also feel like wanting to commit suicide should you fail to detect any indications of their true feelings.

All I ever wanted is to hang out with friends for good food and lively chats. I suppose I shouldn’t get in too deep or asking for too much. Maybe it is actually best if I only watch the game from the sideline? As absurd as it sounds, I have started to believe that letting people know you only on the surface would make you a happier person.


I find shelter, in this way
Under cover, hide away
Can you hear, when I say?
I have never felt this way

Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on
Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on

Could I be, was I there?
It felt so crystal in the air
I still want to drown, whenever you leave
Please teach me gently, how to breathe

And I'll cross oceans, like never before
So you can feel the way I feel it too
And I'll mirror images back at you
So you can see the way I feel it too

Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on
Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on

Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Be still my heart, be still

I like for you to be still - Pablo Neruda

I like for you to be still
It is as though you are absent
And you hear me from far away
And my voice does not touch you
It seems as though your eyes had flown away
And it seems that a kiss had sealed your mouth
As all things are filled with my soul
You emerge from the things
Filled with my soul
You are like my soul
A butterfly of dream
And you are like the word: Melancholy

I like for you to be still
And you seem far away
It sounds as though you are lamenting
A butterfly cooing like a dove
And you hear me from far away
And my voice does not reach you
Let me come to be still in your silence
And let me talk to you with your silence
That is bright as a lamp
Simple, as a ring
You are like the night
With its stillness and constellations
Your silence is that of a star
As remote and candid

I like for you to be still
It is as though you are absent
Distant and full of sorrow
So you would've died
One word then, One smile is enough
And I'm happy;
Happy that it's not true
Come with me, I said, and no one knew
where, or how my pain throbbed,
no carnations or barcaroles for me,
only a wound that love had opened.
I said it again: Come with me, as if I were dying,
and no one saw the moon that bled in my mouth
or the blood that rose into the silence.
O Love, now we can forget the star that has such thorns!
That is why when I heard your voice repeat
Come with me, it was as if you had let loose
the grief, the love, the fury of a cork-trapped wine
the geysers flooding from deep in its vault:
in my mouth I felt the taste of fire again,
of blood and carnations, of rock and scald.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

My Daily Anthem



Bright Lights - Placebo

Cast your mind back to the days,
When I pretend' I was OK.
I had so very much to say,
About my crazy livin'.
Now that I've stared into the void,
So many people, I've annoyed.
I have to find a middle way,
A better way of livin'.

So I haven't given up,
That all my choices, my good luck...
Appear to go and get me stuck,
In an open prison.
Now I am tryin' to break free,
In a state of empathy.
Find the true and enemy,
Eradicate this prison.

No-one can take it away from me,
And no-one can tear it apart.
'Cause a heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.
A heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.

A heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.
No-one can take it away from me,
No-one can tear it apart.
Maybe ' an elaborate fantasy,
But it's the perfect place to start.

'Cause a heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.
A heart that hurts,
Is a heart that... works.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

January 2010

Summing it up with photos rather than write-ups. Here are some of my favourite photos for January.

Nidji's Showcase at Dragonfly Kuala Lumpur 

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Monday, January 04, 2010

Sembang-sembang jam 3am

kekure: salam bos how are you doing?

yasminthestoryteller: salaam. very good, alhamdulillah

kekure: alhamdulillah..have you started your japanese titled movie?

yasminthestoryteller: pre-producing. the hero damn hensem!

kekure: alaaaa...jeles ni!more handsome than peter davis from sell out?

yasminthestoryteller: i didn't think peter davis was hensem.

kekure: saw him live..hensem la compared to the director himself hehehehe

yasminthestoryteller: i'm not big on mat salleh looks, you see.

kekure: yeap i know..

yasminthestoryteller: but i think joon han more attractive than peter davis!

kekure: joon han is cute..finally met him last nite at mid valley..it was nice talking to him about sell out

yasminthestoryteller: ah, i've never met him, though

kekure: gosh i miss our screening with the q&a session..stumbled into him at starbucks..he was with peter davis..

yasminthestoryteller: too busy lah, mem

kekure: you're such a busy bee

yasminthestoryteller: how's the film doing?

kekure: last nite it had about 30 people inside..the most interesting bit is that all of us didn't move even though it was already end of credit..joon han said that it's quite slow

yasminthestoryteller: oh dear

kekure: lots of bloggers wrote good things about this movie..so hopefully it'd help a bit with the tickets sale

yasminthestoryteller: malay bloggers like it more than chinese bloggers, apparently

kekure: yeah..i agree with that..maybe they feel like joon han is mocking his own people?

yasminthestoryteller: that wasn't the complaint. they just didn't like it

kekure: strange..i thought chinese would like it more than malays..

yasminthestoryteller: yah, i know. every time a chinese person says they didn't like it,mcgarmott and allan will attack them! so funny!

kekure: hahaha..semangat kesukanan betul!

yasminthestoryteller: mcgarmott says sellout is the best malaysian film ever..my favourite malaysian film in the last 12 months is "budak kelantan"

kekure: i haven't seen budak kelantan..but i got to watch wayang..not that bad though..after the preview one of the bloggers said to me that it was quite hard to digest the humour

kekure: the bottomline is the humour is quite tricky to digest..if you like the first 15 mins then you'll like it lthe rest of the movie..if you cannot stand it then you'd leave the hall then

yasminthestoryteller: hmmm... maybe

kekure: Clement Chan wrote at 11:06

I watched this on the 9th May at night at Sunway Pyramid with my best friend - 11.45pm showtime. Great movie, had us laughing out loud from the start to the end, and the last scene is just genius.

But I have to draw your attention, Joon Han, of what happened when we went to GSC Pyramid. We arrived at around 11.30pm, saw that there were only two other movies available (can't remember what they are now). We went to the counter, asked for Sell Out!, and she told us that there were only front seats left, but I asked her to show me the seats anyway. And guess what? Turns out that there were more than ample seats - in fact when we entered the hall later, it was half empty.

I don't know if this is a conspiracy against local movies or what, but I thought that you should know. Last I read, Yasmin Ahmad had the same problem before - which is just disappointing imo.

yasminthestoryteller: talentime had same problem as gubra. but i malas nak komplen dah

kekure: do you think that there is a conspiracy here?

yasminthestoryteller: dunno

kekure: it really is perplexing..maybe they want the movie to last only 1 week so that they could have the hall to screen blockbuster movies

yasminthestoryteller: *maybe. it's all about money. but mukhsin no sabotage

kekure: mukhsin's ticket selling was good and perhaps there wasn't any blockbuster movie at that time

yasminthestoryteller: i think the only way to sell tickets is to make all-malay films

kekure: like bohsia jangan pilih jalan hitam?

yasminthestoryteller: yes. even though not guaranteed. jangan tegur didn’t do very well

Gigi – Sang Pemimpi (OST Sang Pemimpi)



sambut hari baru di depanmu
sang pemimpi siap untuk melangkah
beri tanganku jika kau ragu
bila terjatuh ku kan menjaga
kita telah berjanji bersama
taklukkan dunia ini
menghadapi segala tantangan bersama
mengejar mimpi-mimpi
berteriaklah hai sang pemimpi
kita takkan berhenti di sini
kita telah berjanji bersama
taklukkan dunia ini
menghadapi segala tantangan bersama
bersyukurlah pada yang maha kuasa
hargailah orang-orang yang menyayangimu
yang selalu ada setia di sisimu
siapapun jangan kau pernah sakiti
dalam pencarian jati dirimu
dan semua yang kau impikan
tegarlah sang pemimpi
berteriaklah hai sang pemimpi
kita takkan berhenti di sini
kita telah berjanji bersama
taklukkan dunia ini
menghadapi segala tantangan bersama