All part of life's rich tapestry

Work

10am

In 7 working days, I’ll be jobless yet again. I don’t give it much thought actually. My brain is too numb and I’m not feeling good for the past few days. I’ve been having a very hectic weekend. For the past 3 weekends, I had been meeting people and doing stuff which really was tiring. I was on MC yesterday as I had blocked nose and could hardly breathe the night before thus I spent the whole night watching telly until 6am. Thank you to that I had learnt the truth and nothing but the truth about JLO’s love life after watching THS on E! Channel at 4am. At 8.30am I decided that I should be on MC and slept the whole day through after taking some medicine. Well I didn’t really recall what medicine did I take. Actually, I barely have any recollection on how my day was yesterday. But what I remembered was that I had a phone conversation with Gebob but don’t ask me what the conversation was about.

I was on my creative mood last week as I had a very high sugar intake on a very particular night. From that day onwards, I couldn’t sleep before 3am, which means that I would have a very difficult time to get up from bed. Though I don’t really have much work to do, I still show up for work at 9.30am and walk around like I am getting a bit too big for my britches since I got my own room. Hehehe.

2.15pm

After 2hours of lunch break, I finally back to the office. *Yawn*
Checked the email: 1 invitation to attend a meeting @ 10.30am tomorrow. Darn! It’s too early. My brain would still be asleep at that time.

4.30pm
It’s time for tea break. Yeayyyyyyy!

6pm
Off to Berjaya Times Square for a mini movie marathon.
Ocean’s 13 at 6.45pm and Shrek 3 at 9.40pm.
Rusty Ryan I love youuuuuu!!!!

Jom Makan!

Oh I finally forgot. I had an atrocious experience in Sushi King Berjaya Times Square last week. I had been to 2 different Sushi King’s outlets for the past 3 weeks. So I suppose I better write it down in 2 sections as I had faced a very different situation in both visits. I should first apologize to Sushi King for having to share this experience with others, as I believe that the service tax paid by your customers should at least be worthy of.

26th of May 2007
Venue: Sushi King Queen’s Bay Mall, Penang
Patrons : Kekure (Local) and Mrs R (Caucasian from America)

As we arrived at the entrance we were welcomed by the waiter and led to our table. The orders were taken as soon as we were seated and drinks were sent out right after. Our drinks were refilled 4 times as the waiter kept going round from end to end to check the customers. The service given was excellent and the manager was friendly as well. When we paid for our meal, the cashier asked us how was the service and we said that it was excellent and we had a hell of a good time (when I had too much sushi I tend to believe that anything looks great hehehe). Mrs R then asked the cashier why he was so concerned about the service given he said that they had lots of complaints especially from the foreigners about the service level and thus they are working hard to give the best service ever.

Until today I am not certain whether the good customer service was given due to the fact that Mrs R was a foreigner.

10th of June 2007
Venue: Sushi King Berjaya Times Square
Patrons : Kekure (Local) and Fae (Local)

When we got to the entrance, there was a couple in front of us who were waiting to be seated. We were not greeted by anyone, as there was no one standing at the entrance. We saw a vacant table and decided to sit there. We sat and waited for the waitress to clean up the table. We waited again for someone to take our order. Someone finally took our order after waiting for approximately from 5 – 10minutes. We waited yet again for another 15-20 minutes for our order to arrive. We called the waitress who took our order and asked about our order. To make it more interesting, the waitress actually didn’t pass the order chit to kitchen. So we had to wait another 15minutes. In the mean time, no waiters came over to refill our drinks but from our observation the waiter was happily refilling the drinks for the patrons who were seated next to us. The place was full of negative vibes and we suspected that the staff were having such a bad day that none of them were smiling. When we paid for our meal, I told the manager about the service and how unsatisfactory it was. The reply from the manager whose name is Irpan ( he didn’t smile either when we paid ) was this : Oh Kak, I’m so sorry. I felt like wanting to grab his collar and banged his head on the counter for not doing his job as a manager. I reckon he could at least pretend to be sincere when he apologized but he ended up looking like he was mocking me instead.


Family

I managed to get home just in time to join my 2 sistah and me mum to visit the family from my abah’s side after having to drive for 8 hours when it usually takes me about 4 hours to drive home. Man, it was like having to crawl from KL to Ipoh, literally. I slept most of the time as Kojeh was the one driving and was awake once in a while. It was like walking down the memory lane, as it was my first visit after abah passed away 3 years ago. It felt like it was only yesterday that I drove home with abah and my mum during the hari raya, a few days before abah passed away so sudden. I tried to convince myself that it was ok to see granny and the rest of the family and I was fully prepared to face the music. But I suppose I over estimated my capability to forgive people. When we got there I could see his siblings busily preparing the meal for the feast. We weren’t informed that the feast was actually at night and I was a bit pissed off, as we had to rush over so that we wouldn’t miss the feast that we thought would be during the day.

My granny had given me a very long speech. No wonder she kept reminding mum and my sisters that I must came back to see her with them. Ada udang di sebalik mee rupanya! Like most of the time, I wouldn’t fully register all the points said in my brain. The only thing that I could remember is that she feels like I despise her and the rest of the family though she had been trying hard to make things right. She argued that, as I am now fatherless (I don’t see it as a valid argument though. It feels like as if someone who is fatherless should be equally treated like the retards. No offense to anyone though), I should at least try to make some efforts to stay within the family circle. As any other normal and civilized human being would react to the elderly, I just smiled and patted her hand while ensuring her that I’ll keep in touch and might as well spend a weekend with her. Not!

Music

The most played song on my MP3 is Summerlove by JT and followed closely by London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines by Panic at the Disco. I choke everytimeI utter the song title. way too long, Man!.Most watch music video would be Nidji Hapus Aku. Who would say no to such a meaningful and catchy song?

Movies

I watched Elizabeth 1 again last night. The main reason why I could watch the series again and again is the witty lines of the queen. The set was totally grand and Helen Mirren was absolutely gorgeous in this period drama. I don’t want to elaborate more as I don’t have either the expertise to write a proper comment on it or the mood to do so. Well I suppose just wait for Fadz’s review then. Hehehe

on the other hand, Madame Yasmin Ahmad had wrapped up her new movie, Muallaf. Nani is now officially bald. You go girl! Can’t wait to see the latest work from The Boss.

Be Afraid, Be Very Very Afraid

Another attempt to create a new record in the Malaysia Book of Record : 50 hour of non stop karaoke. People, please don't leave your house without your umbrella or raincoat on 8th-10th of June as the attempt will take place in Taman tasik Titiwangsa from 3pm onwards on the 8th and will end on the 10th.

Good luck to Kementerian Pelancongan Malaysia.

For full news, here's the link : http://utusan.com.my/utusan/content.asp?y=2007&dt=0604&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Hiburan&pg=hi_01.htm

Early to bed and early to rise (makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise).

Oh gosh!I couldn’t believe that it had been a month since I last posted anything here. I have so much to write about but too lazy to write. I had been reading lots of books since I my telly broke down. I had to avoid lots of conversation that would have to do with my fave telly shows with quite a few couch potatoes i.e Fae as she would smses about what’s on our fave channels in ASTRO. I miss Little Britain terribly that I had to warn Fae not to discuss anything that had to do with it. LOL


As I am typing this away, I have man who is sitting right in front of me that thought I am actually updating the database for this new project that I assist to develop for my former company. He’s actually my replacement as my contract is going to be terminated soon as HR had instructed my superior to do so. I am not sure whether you would find it rib-trickling funny as much as I do but here was how it went: It was a very peaceful Thursday morning and I came to the office quite early as I had to finish up the weekly report which had to be sent out to Shanghai. As I was practically running out of time, my boss which would be best named as Mr Short Man Syndrome ( I have a very interesting theory about short man but I suppose I’d save it for another posting. No offence to all the shorties out there) suddenly summoned me to his office. When I was walking in my heart was pounding hard and I knew that something bad was on its way. Well I should say that my psychic ability had been developed over the years since I started to drive in KL. I would have to read other drivers thought i.e. when they want to change lane and which lane that they want to go to as they hardly use this thing called signal to indicate their action. Back to my story about Mr SMS. He pointed out to me that he’d like to give me his final warning against me as he found that I was not capable of handling the assignments that had been assigned to me. Then he started to ramble about my behaviour, which he found to be rather disturbing. He said that he couldn’t understand why I am not always at my desk and the importance of me expanding my social circle in the office. I was dumbfounded and something in my head told me that there’s no use of me to fight as I have the cards stacked against me. As the typical Malaysian always react when we are scolded or accused on something that we don’t really do, I kept a straight face while my brain was hardly registered anything that he said for the next 10 minutes. What I could vividly recalled was that I assured him that none of the things that he said before though I was not even sure what he said would never ever happened again. I went back to my place and I realized that he was just using me as his punch bag. I decided then and there that I wouldn’t let myself suffered to work with a sick man like him. You see, he even followed me to the Xerox machine to see how efficient did I use it. He called me up when I was having my lunch and demanded me to come back to the office ASAP and when I got there he was having another meeting and could only see me after 3 hours. I don’t want to write so much about him but I believe that it’d be enough to say that 2 of my colleagues had already tendered their resignation letter and now waiting for their last day with such a glee.

As I told Mr SMS about my intention t o resign, out of the blue he received an email from HR that instructed him to terminate my contract. You see, I had been accused as working illegally in the company as I joined in as a contract staff before the cooling period of 6 months. As of today, Mr SMS had found my replacement that is now sharing my desk in this small room, which have a very beautiful view of KLCC. I’m going to miss the view dreadfully but not the department indefinitely.

I am in the midst of finishing a new book, which entitled Special Topics in Calamity Physics by Marisha Pessl. If you love Mark Haddon’s The Curious Incident of The Dog in The Night-time like me then I believe that you would find it hard to put this book down. The writer really has the wit and the brain that would mesmerize you till the very last page. As my sister is in town, it’s suffice to say that any reading activities as well as social gathering (if any but I can assure you that there are none hehehe ) had to be put on hold.

A short notes on movies that I have seen for the past few weeks :

Sumolah – A typical Afdlin Shauki’s movie but with a weak hint of wasabi. Not to be watched if you couldn’t stand the sights of big butts or men who have nicknames like California roll or any other sushi’s names.

Notes on a scandal – I almost went down on my knees and thanked God for I was not a teacher. Like my friends said to me before, I do have a weak heart for a handsome young man. Hahahahhahahaha. It’s kind of scary to learn what people would do to have a company. Now I know why old ladies always have lots of cats!

The Last King of Scotland – Hail Forest Whitaker!

Spiderman 3 – Goodbye Harry Osborne..I’m going to miss u. A LOT!

Pirates of The Caribbean 3 – Speechless though I kind of prefer the 2nd movie.

Spirit of The Victim - Bluweeeeeeek!


p/s : bajingan, i love you too.whoever you are :)

Counting Crows

To those who still haven’t known the latest news about me then please read the email below. I am to lazy to elaborate LOL

Dear Kekure,

We refer to your resignation letter dated 14 March 2007 and wish to inform that your resignation has been accepted.

As per your contract of employment, you are required to serve the company 1 month's notice. Hence, your last day is on 13 April 2007. As per our records, you have a balance of 4.0 days annual leave (refer to computation below). The leave will be encashed and paid to you along with your last month salary on your last working day.

The computation is as follows:-

Balance B/F from 2006 : 0.0 days
2007 Entitlement up to 13 Apr : 3.0 days
Credit Leave ( 20 Jan & 31 Mac) : 2.0 days
TOTAL : 5.0 days
Less: Taken : 1.0 days (26 Feb)
Balance : 4.0 days

Please meet us at 5.00 pm on 13 April 2007 for the exit clearance procedures.You will be required to return all the company's properties to HR before your departure and a copy of the exit clearance checklist is attached herewith for your reference.

On behalf of the management, I wish you all the best in your future endeavours! **yeah right!**

I suppose most of my colleagues would want to hang me up lately. Last week I came over to work at 10am and left at 6pm. But today I arrived at the office at 11am and guess what? They have cleared my place and someone had taken the seat. So I don’t have any place to sit and I suppose that’s a sign that they have accepted the fact that I won’t be around soon.

Lots of people had been asking me why I resigned out of a sudden. The other day I had proved my point on why I shouldn’t spend another months in the team though my contract is only going to expire in July. One of the client’s staff , Madam R, had told me that she couldn’t make a tail or head on why I made my decision to leave the company as I’ve been doing a fairly good job. I said to her sit and watch and you will understand why. At the very same time as I had the conversation with her, the bajingan was actually having a discussion that had turned out to be a heated argument as he didn’t really understand the work flow though he had been in the team for more than 3 months now. The client, Mr K, started to raise his voice and followed by me. Of course bajingan was mad and guess what he waited until we got back to the office to get back to me. Hahahahaha. But the thing is I had proved to Madam R that I would ended up having a heart attack if I stay with the team. The good thing is the point was seconded by Mr K who is going to ask for a replacement as he too feels that bajingan doesn’t really know what he’s doing.


Book

Been trying hard to at least finish 2 books in a month. That means less time to spend outside the house, I reckon.

Life in Brief

Have been spending lots of time with one particular person. The more time that we spend together the more things I learnt about the person, the more knowledge gained about the person’s interest but I wonder if the affections deepen.

3 goldfish had died in 1 week. The first one, Norlia had died last week due the filter failure. As I was totally devastated with it's sudden departure, I had flushed Norlia down the toilet. Ampunkan aku Norlia! The other two, Joyah and Senah had died yesterday and I found them floating while Ghani was already nyawa-nyawa ikan. I screamed my lungs out and almost gave Ghani the CPR but I might accidentally swallowing him instead. So i found another solution by fixing out the filter, changed the water etc and voila! Ghani is saved.

Joyah and Senah had been given a proper burial under a very green aqua plants yesterday evening. Credits to Kak Senah for reluctantly giving the tiny spot for them both. Hope their spirits will swim happily inside the big vase.

I want to scream myself hoarse!

Have you ever done this?

Go out for a lunch date with some good friends, lost the track of time and you sms your boss and give him the most ridiculous excuse for being late. I.e.: my shower pipe broke and the plumber was late. So I had to wait for him to come over as I couldn’t afford to let the water drip for another day.

Well I did this just yesterday and I got 3 hours lunch break J

Family

Ami has started to utter a few words. Mum said that his latest favourite song is Hujan by Adibah Amin. Gosh! I just can’t wait for him to be able to speak in full sentences. It’d be a hell lot of fun!

Work

It’s such a hard labour lately. Bajingan had used my report and represented it in the management meeting. As expected, he gave out wrong information that had caused the management their precious 15minutes since they had to figure out what was it about. I mean, for god sake, out of 7 people that attended the meeting I reckon only 1 that really knows what are the things included in the documentation that have to be sent out to the customer.

After they wrapped out the meeting I had been called out to see me boss, ADF, hairdo from hell. I didn’t mean to be rude to him last night, but just imagine how frustrating it is to know that your hard labour is not appreciated and nobody really understands what the real problem is and keep blaming you as if you are the saboteur.

Book

If love could think by Alon Gratch

A must read to all those who keep trying to find the one but failed in every attempt or ambivalent in love section. Reading this book is heart wrenching especially after you have identified your love pattern. But one thing that I learnt from this book is this: WE ARE HUMAN.THERE’S NO SUCH THING AS PURE LOVE. Period.

Mental Note

Spending quality time with the light of your life would make you feel like flying, provided that the other person feels the same way too. Else, either party would start to play silly bugger and.

The size of your bosom doesn’t indicate how many bosom friends that you have. **This might not apply to attractive girls with big boobs**

The man on the Clapham omnibus

Life is pretty hectic for the past few days
Wake up at 6am to get to work
Arrive to the office at 7.30am and start working right away
Finish working at 8.30pm
No lunch for a couple of days this week
I’d have to work like this until 21st of March
The deadline for most of us in the project as we have been considered as failures
Quote from the GPM : Somebody’s going to be fired from the project but I am sure as hell that it wouldn’t be me.

Bajingan is his usual self

A real pain in the axx

Someone almost punched him on the face the other day
No lessons learn though
As a layman he really is a hopeless case
He always got issues with me including on why I always have to attend the meetings with the customer
He’s such a tough nut
Get real Bajingan!

I have more responsibilities than you do
I have been assigned a new project which drafts have to been delivered by next week and it really is time consuming and lots of meetings to attend
What makes thing worst is that he always claimed that he’s my friend
Oh man! I wish I could just strangle him with the LAN Cable or just throw him out of the window
My colleagues and I had dubbed him as the drama queen
He’d always walk around with a piece of paper and a pen in his hand just to show people how busy he is
I had to buy an mp3 player since I just couldn’t stand his 120Db voice
One could always hear his conversations on the phone even if they are 100m away

Mukhsin

I know, I know.
Lots of people have been writing in their blogs about how moving this movie is
But what I can tell you is this; please watch this movie with an open heart and you should soon realize that the colours and the feelings that you sense in the movie will be engraved in your mind
You’ll be amazed to see how honest Mukhsin and Orked could be about their feelings towards each other
And most of all I know that the songs will be played again and again in your head
Let me know what you think of the movie will you?

"Plug In Baby"

I've exposed your lies, baby

The underneath is no big surprise

Now it's time for changing

And cleansing everything

To forget your love

My plug in baby

Crucifies my enemies

When I'm tired of giving

My plug in baby

In unbroken virgin realities

Is tired of living

Don't confuse

Baby you're gonna lose

Your own game

Change me

Replace the envying

To forget your love

My plug in baby

Crucifies my enemies

When I'm tired of giving

My plug in baby

In unbroken virgin realities

I'm tired of living

And I've seen your loving But mine is gone

And I've been in trouble

Mental note

One could always have a whale of a time if given the chance to spend their time with a person that they adore

A great way to start your day; seeing the face of the one you adore when you wake up

Life in brief

Work

The so called assistant, bajingan, had been promoted to be my new so called leader. Found out that he showed the database that I had developed myself for weeks to the management and claimed that it was his. Almost went amok in management meeting when he got all the credits while I had been dubbed as incompetent.Updated the database on daily basis and forwarded to Bajingan but protected with password. Bajingan asked for password but sarcastically asked him to update it himself as he also had the “same database” that he presented to the management. Bajingan ended up being so mad and had to start everything from scratch.

Family

Went back for a short visit. The family was fine. Had lotsa great home meal. Yummy to the max!

Skill Developed

Cursing under my breath while smiling like a clown

Strong Language

Diversity of cursing languages (Malay, Chinese, French, Java)

Looking forward to

Men

MEN

When I was young,

I used to
Watch behind the curtains
As men walked up and down the street.
Wino men, old men.
Young men sharp as mustard.
See them.
Men are always
Going somewhere.
They knew I was there.
Fifteen Years old and starving for them.
Under my window, they would pauses,
Their shoulders high like the
Breasts of a young girl,
Jacket tails slapping over
Those behinds,Men.
One day they hold you in the
Palms of their hands, gentle, as if you
Were the last raw egg in the world.
Then
They tighten up.
Just a little.
TheFirst squeeze is nice.
A quick hug.
Soft into your defenselessness.
A littleMore.
The hurt begins.
Wrench out a
Smile that slides around the fear.
When the
Air disappears,
Your mind pops,
exploding fiercely,
briefly,
Like the head of a kitchen match.
Shattered.
It is your juice
That runs down their legs.
Staining their shoes.
When the earth rights itself again,
And taste tries to return to the tongue,
Your body has slammed shut.
Forever.
No keys exist.
Then the window draws full upon
Your mind.
There, just beyond
The sway of curtains, men walk.
Knowing something.
Going someplace.
But this time, I will simply
Stand and watch.
Maybe.

Maya Angelou

Joyeux anniversaire

Passe une tres tres bonne annee !

(Merci David)



Hold within your arms a sun

And let it smile and wish you well.

Play with it, and when you're done,

Put it where you'll never tell.

Your sun will smile just for you,

Being yours, and yours alone,

Inside your palace, out of view,

Resting in a place unknown.

The sun I wish for you is bright,

Happy doing what suns will:Daring to hold off the night

As loves and dreams your future fill,

Your cares caress and sorrows still.

Spot the grammatical errors!

I wish I could slang him for his grammatical errors*sigh*

As we know, XXX is a experience person on the transmissions. He studies the documents deeply and the installation! He cannot accept small mistake even the tape error! on the documentation, otherwise the document will be rejected. xxx and I have met him regarding the documentation issue.

He comment and requested as shown below:

1.) Formatting issue -

The Site A status and information must be lower side band then follow by upper side band as site B including Site survey information, Drawing layout, Photo and ATP.

2.) Paper quality.

3.) Layout issue -

The propose antenna, feeder run and IDU position drawing must teally to the photo taken at site before and after the installation.
- The feeder length must indicate at all the position. for example: feeder length count from antenna position to IDU position.
- The tower length position must indicate: A, B, C and D. For example: (Drawing Top-view) If the North position facing to top, the A indication is located at the top of the right-hand side tower -leg (clockwise).

4.) Factory test result on the microwave equipment.

5.) All the test result must attach to the document such:

- Frequency scanning spectrum result.
- AGC flat-fit margin result.
- BER performance result.
- Softwave configuration.

6.) Signature on the document process follows the table contents and not compile together.

7.) He prefers the BER performance result by using the original paper from Digital transmissions analyzer and not using A4 generated from soft-wave.

Notice: We cannot fix a target or deadline to Sub-cons as similar like Node-B because we need to submit one example completed document as according to (^O^) standard. Let him comment on the PDH documentation until he feels that our PDH document satisfactorily. If the PDH document approved by XXX. We must let him to sign on the confirmation on the PDH format (acknowledgment) to prevent of him to propose new ideas on the documents format in future.

Action : After everything is confirm then we will start to fix a target or deadline to sub-cons for the PDH submissions

***this is a sign that I am too bored at work***

Love - Overrated?

Love

Then said Almitra, "Speak to us of Love."
And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them.
And with a great voice he said:
When love beckons to you follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.

And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.

He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.
All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

The Prophet - Kahlil Gibran

Work

I just came out of the team meeting. It had been cancelled twice since everybody was busy with their own activities i.e : meeting the customers, de tour to somewhere else on the way to meeting, calling in sick etc. We finally managed to attend the meeting though I was like 15mins late. It all started with my- so- called -helper- who- keeps- sending-emails -with -lots- of -grammatical- errors (which I cannot tolerate any longer) had made an appointment with the subcon.I was not aware of his appointment with them and what made it worst? He pretended that he knew everything but he wasn't and I ended up having to explain everything to them. The frosting on the cake? My team mates let me sat next to my boss which meant that I would have to nod and to show lots of interest though the agendas were mainly shite. The boss wished us Happy New Year then the resolutions and objectives of the team. He then appointed some of us to lead a weekly meeting which I supposed was unnecessary since we always have discussion over coffee at 4pm daily hahaha. The assignment for the next meeting : a 300 words essay on our objectives and missions for 2007. Interesting huh? Now would anybody want to volunteer to do my part? LOL

Books

Am reading 3 books simultaneously - purification of heart, lissey's story and american gods. The last book that I read from Stephen King was black house. Lissey's story very much reminded me why I fell in love with his writing when i was in form 1. get a copy of the comic tragedy or the tragedy comic by neil gaiman i suppose you'll be hooked with his writing.

Life

Nothing much going on

Mind your languange

Email received today

Since you are committed the deadline to complete 10 pending documentation.

I have lock in to the Database as a record.

Be aware, the serious action will be taking if you are not complete as according to the deadline.
Please call me immediately if you facing any problem during the process of documentation.

Once again, the deadline of submission is 11-01-2007.

**Man,I should just shoot the sender**

Bonne et heureuse annee!!!!

LOVE HURTS - INCUBUS

Tonight we drink to youth& holding fast to truth.
(I don’t want to lose what I had as a boy.)
My heart still has a beat
but love is now a feat
(as common as a cold day in LA.)

Sometimes when I’m alone, I wonder/is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?
Love hurts
but sometimes it’s a good hurt & it feels like I’m alive.
Love sings
when it transcends the bad things.
Have a heart & try me,
‘cause without love I won’t survive.

I’m fettered & abused
I stand naked & accused.
(should I surface this one man submarine?)
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth!
(I’ll never lose what I had as a boy.)
Sometimes when I’m alone, I wonder
is there a spell that I am under/keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts…
but sometimes it’s a good hurt & it feels like I’m alive.
Love sings
when it transcends the bad things.
Have a heart & try me,
‘cause without love I won’t survive.

be like a bear with a sore head

I look like Takeshi Kaneshiro in this pic when in a meeting

I suppose it might be a bit early to review about my life in 2006 since we are still in week 50. I am getting used to using week instead of days or months since I started to forecast my activities at work on weekly basis.

Work

As always, passionless. Everybody is behind my back even the guy who is supposed to support me in my mission to reach the management target. I don’t know how it happened but I ended up having to support him instead. I almost bite his head off when he kept asking me every half an hour if I could release 100 docs in 2 weeks. I kept telling him that it’d be difficult to do so since we have to push lots of people but it’s like banging your head against a brick wall.

Movies

OSS 117

2 Thumbs Up! I actually watched it after having a great time seeing Daniel Craig in James Bond. What I can say is this: after seeing OSS117 one wouldn’t want to watch James Bond anymore, literally.

Wedding Crashers

Total craps but what the heck? It’s a feel good movie anyway.

Wedding Date

Funny and sad, as usual.

I almost watched My Best Friend’s Wedding. If not I’d be watching 3 movies with the word wedding in it back to back. Muahahahahhahhahahahahahahah.

Family

Mum had her cataract removed last week. Another nites spent in the hospital and god knows how glad I was when mum was discharged. It was a very hectic weekend actually. I went over for a short holiday then I rushed back to take care of Mum. She was afraid that I couldn’t make it as Gebob was sick and Kojeh was having her exam. But hey, one got to what one’s got to do. Mum was calmer this time compared to her first time. She didn’t cry anymore and could casually mention to other patients about Abah and how he died.

Misc

As mad as a hatter with someone that I definitely couldn’t afford to. I just don’t know what to do with myself.


p/s : my posting is getting shorter these days..i blame it on my boss, AdF.The guy with the worst hairdo in the whole company

"Anna-Molly"

A cloud hangs over,

It's a city by the sea,

I watch the ships pass and wonder if she might be,

Out there and sober as a well for loneliness,

Please do persist girl its time we met and made, a mess

I picture your face in the back of my eyes,

A fire in the attic a proof of the prize,

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly,

Doo doo doo doo do doo doo doo doo doo

A cloud hangs over,

And mutes my happiness,

A thousand ships couldn't send me back from distress,

Wish you were here,

I'm a wounded satellite,

I need you now put me back together make me right

I picture your face in the back of my eyes a fire in the attic a proof of the prize,

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly,

I'm calling your name up into the air

Not one of the others could ever compare!

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly,

Wait there is a light,

There is a fire illuminated attic,

Fate or something better I could care less,

Just stay with me a while,

Wait there is a light, there is a fire defragmenting the attic,

Fate or something better I could care less,

Just stay with me a while

I picture your face in the back of my eyes a fire in the attic a proof of the prize,

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly,

I'm calling your name up into the air.Not one of the others could ever compare!

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly!

Bonjour Tristesse

Brad Pitt in Babel

Am busy like hell but still I need to write something. November is definitely the month of sadness for me. Lots of things happened in November i.e. my beloved abah (may god bless his soul) passed away on 17 November and of course I was born in November years ago.

Time does fly. It’s already two years but it feels like yesterday. His love will always be felt by those that knew him. My family still talk about him in present tense as if he was still alive. I suppose we’d still talk in that way in many years to come.

Al- Fatihah.

Let's move on to the happier notes, shall we?

Movies

I have seen lots of movies lately, either in DVD’s or in the cinema itself.

Death Note

Death Note is highly recommended and believe me, you don’t need to be the reader of it’s manga to understand what the heck is death note. I suppose the trailer shown on TV doesn’t truly justify the movie. A few friends were fooled by the trailer and they thought that it is a horror movie. For a better review on this movie, read here: http://tontonfilem.blog-city.com/

Cinta

Thanks to Fadz for the invitation to Cinta’s premiere. Like lots of other people wrote down in their blog, Cinta definitely promises something else. I personally like the performances of Rashidi Ishak, Pierre Andre, Sh Amani and her mom, Fatimah Abu Bakar and last but not least Dato’ Rahim Razali. They have many songs in it but the one that I like the most is by Anuar Zain. Man, I do hope that he’d come out with a new album sooooooooon!

Go and see for yourself! And please don’t forget your hanky though.

p/s : Piere Andre rawkz! :P

"Te Busqué"(feat. Juanes)

I've been high I've been low
I've been fast I've been slow
I've had nowhere to go
Missed the bus missed the show
I've been down on my luck
I've felt like giving up
My life locked in a trunk
When it hurt way too much
I needed a reason to live
Some love inside me to give
I couldn't rest I had to keep on searching

Te busqué debajo de las piedras y no te encontré
En la mañana fría y en la noche te busqué
Hasta enloquecer
Pero tú llegaste a mi vida como una luz
Sanando las heridas de mi corazón
Haciéndome sentir vivo otra vez.

I've been too sad to speak and too tired to eat
Been too lonely to sing the devil cut off my wings
I've been hurt by my past but I feel the future
In my dreams and it lasts I wake up I'm not sure
I wanted to find the light something just didn't feel right
I needed an answer to end all my searching
I look in the mirror the picture's getting clearer
I wanna be myself but does the world really need her
I ache for this earthI stopped going to church
See God in the trees makes me fall to my knees
My depression keeps building like a cup overfilling
My heart so rigid I keep it in the fridge
It hurts so bad that I can't dry my eyes
Cuz they keep on refillin' with the tears that I cry...

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Chairil Anwar
Feb 1943

In Raya Mode

since i don't feel like working, i utilised my working hours by doing this quiz. Folks, don't do this at work! :P

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

Letter to self

Hi self, hope you’re doing just fine. But I could sense that you’re feeling a bit under the weather. Maybe you should give your brain a day off from thinking all about you and people around you as well. You’d feel much better after doing that.

I know what’s bothering you the most. You always think about relationships. I know, I know. You’re not worry about being single or whatever, not even after reading how dangerous it is to be single in CLEO. You wonder why it is so hard to maintain a good relationship with your colleagues, old and new ones as well as your friends from school, college and social rings. You wonder why only a few people keep in touch with you after you left the school or department, right? Maybe because you don’t have any benefits for them or perhaps they are sick and tired of you. Who knows what they really think. So let’s move on, shall we?

The old friend that suddenly called you up after 10 years did stir up your emotions a little bit, didn’t it? I know that you were stunned when she asked why you never kept in touch with her. She used to be a good friend but people change. You just couldn’t tell her that, right? Don’t tell me that you feel inferior upon knowing that she’s married to the son of a very successful businessman, don’t you? I know that you thought of blasting her off to the Neptune when you told her the name of your company and she thought that you assemble the hand phone. She never changed it seems, still thought that no one could ever go above her. It’s not hard to figure out why you don’t want to have any connections wit her. Then another phone call from someone that you knew from your childhood brought back the memories of you and your dad. Move on self! Your dad had past away for 2 years now. Even your mum could get over him sooner than you thought of.

Have you finished up the resolutions for your birthday? I found out that one of the resolutions that you have is to shortlist your circle of friends. Are you planning to dump some of your friends? A piece of advice: Just dump those that call you up once a year with either of these reasons: don’t forget the present. My birthday is next week or my gf/bf dumped me. I need someone to talk to!

You happened to see your favourite someone this weekend I heard. Did you have a great time together? Hey what’s with the sulky face? Well, you know how things work with you two. Just go with the flow. Besides, you learn some new things about yourself and him as well every time you guys meet. Don’t be so selfish. He needs supports and you know exactly what it feels like to be trapped in such situation. You know best how to overcome it and I believe that it’d mean a lot to him if you could try your best to soothe him rather than letting him wanders around like a mentally sick person. Just forget that he ever said that you could be as annoying as you could be. This is the least that you can do I reckon.


It’s Monday morning and you don’t feel like going to work tomorrow, don’t you? Well, it’s kind of hard to say any good things about going to work. I know you feel a bit tense, especially when you are caught up in the bitter relationship with the witch secretary and the moron assistant. I couldn’t stop laughing when your face changed its colour upon hearing the answer from the moron assistant when you told her that the printer ran out of paper and you had to print out your reports because your boss needed them urgently. I know that you almost exploded when you heard her reply. “Then what should I do?”. Man, that was enough to make your blood pressure go sky high. What’s with Thursday the stationery day? It is the most ridiculous thing ever. What if you need to use a marker for your presentation on Monday? Do you still need to wait for Thursday? Sheesh! That’s really a pain in the ass, isn’t it? The best reason that I could come up with is that they are hired to make people’s life miserable. You know that you’re not the only person who has to face the stupid acts. Cheer up self! Walk with your chin up and pretend that you see no evil, hear no evil and talk to no evil.

What’s with the competition that a girlfriend wanted to have with you? She just couldn’t resist the temptation to compete in everything, couldn’t she? Who got the best job (I guess you both got a lousy job hahah), the highest pay, the best boyfriend (you both are draw in this, thank god. No heart feeling aye?). The competition would go on and on and on in each and every things. I couldn’t say much on this because I know she won’t quit. Just let her race with her own self, shall we?

It has been two agonizing years. Time does fly and maybe soon we can see a pink pig flying over your car. Do you remember how dreadful it was for you to live before? You lost your dad and you were jobless and no one knew about it but you and a few friends. I just couldn’t forget the last trip to granny’s house when dad told your granny that he was relieved that you had a job and lived well. What he didn’t know that time was that you quit your job a week before. Dad would be frustrated if he knew it, wouldn’t he? Let’s move ahead. The dark ages had gone. You finally got a decent job and slowly building up your life. Perhaps you’d be a better person after what you have went through.


Life is hard isn’t it? I know that you keep thinking about your dad lately. You know that you couldn’t tell your mum how difficult it is to build your life from scratch and the only person that could really understand you was your dad. It’s normal to feel like a lost puppy but hey you got me. You could always confide in me. You know how much I love you, my one and only self.

This song keeps playing in my head

Hate Me I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my headThey crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bedDropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alonePlaying movies in my head that make a porno feel like homeThere's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brainAn ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted spaceHate me todayHate me tomorrowHate me so you can finally see what's good for youI'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me withThe one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch againIn a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at nightWhile I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fightYou never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hateYou made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to takeSo I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mindAnd do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behindHate me todayHate me tomorrowHate me for all the things I didn't do for youHate me in waysYeah ways hard to swallowHate me so you can finally see what's good for youAnd with a sad heart I say bye to you and waveKicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had madeAnd like a baby boy I never was a manUntil I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my handAnd then I fell down yelling "make it go away!"Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to beAnd then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"Hate me todayHate me tomorrowHate me for all the things I didn't do for youHate me in waysYeah ways hard to swallowHate me so you can finally see what's good for you

The 9th day of Ramadhan

All Good Things (Come To An End) - Nelly Furtado

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.