Curhat?might be

yes,i am

• selfish
• egoistic
• stubborn
• big headed
• letting my world revolves around little miss sunshine
• not interested to be anyone's friend anymore
• toxic so please stay away for i will bring more harm that good
  
• starting to believe that it's not worth it to trust anyone but yourself

but still,i am

• ready to give my shoulder for you to cry on
• living my life as it is
• optimistic that it's a bright sun shiny day
• thankful that there are friends who are willing to listen without being judgmental

Linkin Park - by myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts
That are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?

Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself
(Myself)

I ask why
But in my mind I find
I Can't rely on myself
(Myself)
I ask why
But in my mind I find
I Can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
(To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outrun
But if I try to catch them I'll be outdone
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
By myself
(Myself)

I ask why
(Myself)
Can't rely on myself
(Myself)
I ask why
But in my mind I find
Can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
(To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
(To anything, watching everything spin)
With thoughts of failure sinking in

How do you think
I've lost so much
I'm so afraid (I'm so afraid...)
I'm out of touch
How do you expect (How do you expect)
I will know what to do
When all I know
Is what you tell me to

Don't you KNOW
I can't tell you how to make it GO
No matter what I do, how hard I RUN
I can't seem to convince myself WHY
I'm stuck on the outside

I can't hold on
(To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
(To anything, watching everything spin)
With thoughts of failure sinking in