Want to live the life of Riley?

I’m slowly finding my way out from my portentous philosophizing.
If I were a painter I might have stopped painting a bleak picture of my life.
I had a very long lecture this morning on do’s and don’ts with this particular person.
As usual I ended up being the so-called drama queen.
Never speak when your stomach is empty.
Low sugar in blood brings you no good.
You’d ended up having a long-winded speech and fail to focus on conversation.
Don’t be a difficult person and just live life as it is.
Stay away from personal issues its bad for your mental state of mind.
Thing is not getting better in this particular department.
Out of the blue I suddenly feel like I have a super power and could amend lots of things but this one.
It makes me feel like I’m fighting a losing battle.
For some this is the same-o-same-o me.
When will it stop? I asked myself out loud.
No echoes coming back to haunt me.
At least not today.

My Interpretation - Mika

You talk about life, you talk about death,
And everything in between,
Like it's nothing, and the words are easy.
You talk about me, and you talk about you,
And everything I do,
Like it's something, that needs repeating.
I don't need an alibi or for you to realize,
The things we left unsaid,
Are only taking space up in our head.
Make it my fault, win the game
Point the finger, place the blame
It does me up and down,
It doesn't matter now.

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense.

The first two weeks turn into ten,
I hold my breath and wonder when it'll happen,
Does it really matter?
If half of what you said is true,
And half of what I didn't do could be different,
Would it make it better?
If we forget the things we know.
Would we have somewhere to go?
The only way is down, I can see that now.
It's really not such a sacrifice
And it don't have to make no sense to you at all,
'Cause this is my interpretation, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Reverse Psycho

Bila la Malaysia nak ada iklan camni..
kalau aku yang buat iklan mengundi wajib ada Anuar Zain hehe

Hari ini sangat indahkan?

In the spirit of Viva La Vida I decided start doing things that I never thought I’d do even if tomorrow is doomsday.

It’s nothing bizarre but I believe in taking one step at a time so I tried foot reflexology with a blind masseuse.

When he first touched my cold barefoot I couldn’t help it but to giggle out loud.

It was so ticklish and I couldn’t help myself.

I tried to control my giggle by biting my lips but to no avail.

After 15 minutes I was more relaxed and it went smooth but once in a while my giggle seemed to find its way out.

45 minutes of good foot massage for RM20, I will definitely go again!

Work wise, nothing is going on just yet.Another day goes by with less percentage of brain cells used.

It really is a beautiful day today don’t you think?

Oh Happy Halloween everyone!

Hari yang cerah - Peterpan

Pagi biar kusendiri
Jangan kau mendekat
Wahai matahari
Dingin hati yang bersedih
Tak begitu tenang
Mulai terabaikan

Hari yang cerah untuk jiwa yang sepi
Begitu terang untuk cinta yang mati
Ah... ku coba bertahan dan tak bisa

Kubu langit kelabuku
Tak begitu luas
Seperti memudar
Kini tak terulang lagi
Di hari yang cerah
Dia telah pergi

Hari yang cerah untuk jiwa yang sepi
Ahh.... ku coba bertahan dan tak bisa
Ahh.... mencoba melawan ku lepas
Hari yang cerah untuk jiwa yang sepi...
Begitu terang untuk cinta yang mati

Ahh... kucoba bertahan dah tak bisa
Ahh... mencoba melawan ku lepas
Semua telah hilang ....
Semua telah

Recapitulate

It’s 2am and I am still wide awake as if I had been drinking from the fountain of latte.

My body is sore, my soul is weary and the throbbing in my heel is almost unbearable.

What does it mean to be me if there is no disaster for a day?

I lost balance while painting a wall and my left foot landed on a plug that was facing up.

There gone some of my skin, a few milliliters of blood and walking around like a handicapped for the rest of the day.

That was the price to pay to make someone happy.

The smile that I got was priceless I guess.

At 8.30am I am scheduled to attend my orientation at the new company.

God knows I’d kill so that I don’t have to attend it.

Not that I don’t want to but I’m afraid that my heel would be aching and surrounded by strangers would make me choke.

I believe that I am now socially retarded.

9 days in the new office I still haven’t make friends with any one from the department.

It’s not that I’m not welcomed but I just don’t feel like hanging out with them.

I was so comfortable at the old company where I knew just about anyone and without any intentions to brag I knew almost everything.

It’s a long and winding road but I believe that such things would take time; especially after all that I have went through.

It’s been 4 years since I last had a permanent position.

I feel awkward knowing that there’s no contract duration.

I am terrified to know that I am duty bound to do my work for as long as I can handle it.

But after giving much thought on the benefits and the solitary that made me changed my career then I believe that from now on I need strong nerves!

I am not saying that it’s unpleasant to work here but knowing myself lots of catastrophe could happen.

Last raya marked the 4^th year of abah not being here with me in this cruel world.

Mak was mad knowing that I decided not to visit the graveyard.

I told her 3 cemeteries to visit in 1 day would leave me feel dreadful all day long.

Raya was no fun at all but time was well spent with watching dvds and completed dozens of missions in GTA and defeated worms in worms 4.

October also marked the date when I moved away from Penang to KL.

5 years in KL but nothing seems to change in me.

Don’t let me start on the downside of being me but let’s just say that I know myself and perhaps a lot of things need to be done for me to change.

All in all I believe there is nothing to look forward to in 2009.

Not having the intention of planning a life is like sitting on the porch with friends, just shooting the breeze.

We Never Change - Coldplay

I wanna live life, never be cruel,
I wanna live life, be good to you.

I wanna fly, never come down,
And live my life,
And have friends around.

We never change, do we?
We never learned to leave,
So I wanna live in a wooden house,
I wanna live life, always be true,
I wanna live life, and be good to you,
I wanna fly, and never come down,
And I live my life, and have friends around.

We never change do we? No, no,
We never learned to bleed,
So I wanna live in a wooden house,
Making more friends would be easy.

O I don't have a show to say,
Yes, and I sing of a single day,
We never change do we?
We never learned to leave.

So, I wanna live life in a wooden house,
Making more friends would be easy,
I wanna live where the sun comes out