Sunday, October 23, 2005

The saga continues

When I said that it was going to be a strange day, it did eventually turned from strange to horrific. What was the outcome? I had put my job in line, simply because I lost my temper. One thing about me is that when I get angry it means that I really am angry. I suppose that’s the problem when one can hardly get angry. So when I get angry it’d be awful.

I got so pissed off that I had showed the finger to a person without ever realizing that the witch saw me doing it. As a result, I had been warned that the witch would only need to tell the VP about my behavior to send me out the door. By learning this fact, I have lost the excitement to do my work let alone to drag myself ou of bed.

What makes me feel more aggravated is that the witch is so untouchable that we all need to succumb to all the hardships that we have to endure every time we need to get the VP’s approvals and other things that she handles too. I believe that it’s so pathetic that we can’t find any solutions to all the problems that arise each time we get into trouble with the witch. I was advised to be low profile and not to show my protest towards her openly. Man, after all the insults and difficulties that I went through the least that I want to do is to keep my mouth shut.

I desperately trying not to complain or causing any trouble at all. Alas, the things that I want to hinder the most had happened. I came back late from work yesterday since I had to arrange the traveling for a couple of guys. I could have settled the arrangements in less than 4 hours if it was not for the witch and her boss who had made things difficult. Just thinking about the time and energy wasted on these all made me feel like throwing up.

To stir things up, the witch had also labeled me as very bad Malay for showing her the finger. Racist? Indeed. In the al-quran it is said that races were created so that we could learn from each other. There are no races better than the other; basically we all are much the same regardless of your skin colors or languages. I must confess that in my mind I try not to judge people based on their race but rather on their individualities. So what do I felt when I found out about the label that she put on me? I felt pity to her children because they have a mother who is so racist and evil at the same time. If I were to be her child, I might have slit my throat and let my blood flows on her new carpet. LOL.

I slept the whole day and night, because of the emotional drained. Pray that it’d be sunnier on Monday.

Coldplay - Trouble
O no,
I see,I
spun a web,
it's tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I said,
O no what's this?A spider web,
and I'm caught in the middle,I
turned to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I've done,
I never meant to cause you trouble,
And I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
O no, I never meant to do you harm.
O no I see,A
spider web and it's me in the middle,S
o I twist and turn,
Here I am in love in a bubble,
Singing, I never meant to cause you trouble,
I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Although I never meant to do you harm.
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me.

2 messages:

Anonymous said...

if i were to be her children..i won't slit my throat and die. instead, i'll slit her throat for behaving like a jerk towards others. forget about being a good racers(as in pejuang bangsa..ekekke) if she's worst than the person she called 'a-bad-malay'?

what do we called a mom who easily give names to other people?


kekure said...

kijamnyer ko beb!hahahahha..