Saturday, July 09, 2005

~It's raining men~

Give Me Strength

This is my prayer to thee, my lord---strike,
strike at the root of penury in my heart.
Give me the strength lightly to bear my joys and sorrows.
Give me the strength to make my love fruitful in service.
Give me the strength never to disown the poor or bend my knees before insolent might.
Give me the strength to raise my mind high above daily trifles.
And give me the strength to surrender my strength to thy will with love.

Rabindranath Tagore

It’s raining cats and dogs outside. I never felt so blissful to hear the heavy rain drops today. I suppose it’s because I couldn’t hear the raindrops at the office nor I couldn’t feel the wind blowing through my windows. It would be so refreshing to run outside and play in the rain. Lately, I could see the lightning strikes from my office but I could not hear the sounds of it. It makes me feel lonely and sad. It reminds me how I am so blessed with the ability to hear and to see. I thank God for all the blessings that I have taken for granted all these years.

Ass-sessments !

I was at the office last Saturday, to reseat for my call-answering assessment. I did well I supposed since I was already been given the schedule for next week. I was still dizzy due to lack of sleep and I didn’t have a proper lunch today. I was not in the mood to eat by myself, so I ended up having bread, again.

I had two sessions with two different seniors. The first one was very warm and supportive. She gave me all the freedoms that I wanted and needed to toggle with the system. The best thing was I got some rooms to make mistakes and I learnt my lessons well. Came the second senior, I felt as if I should ran amok in the office and killed anybody who wears blue shirt. I believe that anywhere in the world, in any companies, schools or colleges, there’d be somebody who wants us to hail them as Miss-Knows-It -All. I wonder if she purposely interrupted my phone conversation with a customer right in front of my trainer just to show how incompetent I am. sigh

Luckily, I passed the assessment but I reckon not with flying colours!

Know when you are well off

I believe that I have wasted the 1st half of this year and accomplished nothing. I was jobless, then hired. I worked for 3 months with no pay. I went back to square one for a few months. And now we are already in the second half of 2005. What have I gained out of these messes? A lot. Have I any regrets? A few but it’s nothing compared to all the lessons that I learnt from the hardships that I had to endure. All in all, I grow I each and every way; from the small plants in nobody knows to the big trees in LOTR. Well not that big yet, but I suppose I’d be that big if I follow the doc’s instruction to eat 5 meals daily to maintain my blood pressure LOL.

Khayalan Tingkat Tinggi

I had a strange urge to listen to that song last night.
Khayalan Tingkat Tinggi - Peter Pan
awal ku melihat
kuyakin ini bukanlah yang biasa
melemahkan aku melihat tatap matanya
garis tawanya
waktu berhenti apabila
ku memandangnya
melemahkan aku melihat tatap matanya
khayalan ini setinggi-tingginya
tepat ku memikirkannya
bila ku dapat ku simpan wajahnya
memegang indahnya
berpura memilikinya
yang kunanti saat memegang tangannya
sampai nanti tetap memegang tangannya

Why do I love this song so much? It’s plain to see the reasons from the lyrics. I’ve been longing for something for so long that I’ve started to question myself is it really worth it to holding on something that I know for certain would never be mine? I believe I shall get the answer eventually. In the mean time, this song shall be my anthem and I’ll sing it with gusto everyday as I wake up from my sleep.

I can't believe there's anything seriously wrong with her - she's the picture of health.

If I were pretty enough, I would have been chosen as the National Health model. You know, like Siti Nurhaliza who had been chosen as the PBSM ambassador. I always in good health and I donate blood twice a year. Come to think of it, I would get the opportunities to do covers for magazines. I could be the next top health model. I could be on the cover with Fahrin Ahmad!Heck! I need to shed off some fat before that. Hmmm what diet should I follow this time? hehehe.

Thank God for the good health for all these years. I was diagnosed with low blood pressure last week. I also don’t believe it too. I never had any health problems before. When I came back to work yesterday, everybody was asking how was I doing. It was tiring to know how they couldn’t believe their ears when they heard about my ailing and I had to explain over and over again about my health problem. At times I felt like I should’ve run an advertisement in the newspaper to tell them about my health conditions hahahaha. It would have saved the times in doing the explanations.

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